Bret and I have found ourselves in a unique exciting living situation... we have moved to the Santa Cruz mountains with a live/work situation on 3 acres... that means we live here for free in return for work around the property for two really generous land owners... not only will we be living here for free but we will be getting paid $500 a month to live here and work at least 25 hours a week doing many jobs, like remodeling rooms, building porches, landscaping etc.... Bret will be doing most of the labor intensive skilled work and I will do most of the investigative designing grunt work.... we will beable to save sooooo much money as long as we live here.... how long? who knows... it's really up to the land owners for the most part...
so in this lifes high why am I feeling so low today?
well I think there are many accumulative reasons... like my menstral cycle... not knowing what our home owners are thinking of us and our work sofar... not being settled in this new living situation... feelings of uncertainty and insecurity... feeling that what I've done sofar is not comprehended by the land owners... I feel sad and depressed for no real outstanding reason other then I keep choosing to worry about alot of stuff... why worry? worrying won't do a thing but get me all sad and depressed feeling... but I'm not sure how to snap out of it quite yet... so here I type my thoughts as I wait for the waves to wash over me....
I really am so excited and happy about our move... I'm just not feeling comfortable yet...
or very sociable... feelings of being usless jab at my confidence and exaggerate my lack of motivation today...
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